You don't think you will. Because you're not in that place. And you can't switch back and forth on command.
Every time you switch? Your tolerance for the bad parts of a relationship goes down and it's more and more likely that you'll do something like that. Because those people become less and less real to you. They're just things that are supposed to make you happy and feel good.
They can't hurt you, so there's no consequences to hurting them.
So you can hurt them because you're annoyed.
You can hurt them because it's funny.
You can hurt them because of something they did so far in the past that you shouldn't care about it but you do because why not? It doesn't matter. They can't hurt you. And when the consequences come, you just shut that part off.
And they notice that they can't hurt you. It's unfair, that you can hurt them but they can't hurt you. So they stop caring too. But for them, it means that they don't want to have the good parts. They don't want to be around you. They leave.
But you don't like that. You want the good parts. And you want to be able to hurt them without them being able to hurt you. So you struggle.
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You don't think you will. Because you're not in that place. And you can't switch back and forth on command.
Every time you switch? Your tolerance for the bad parts of a relationship goes down and it's more and more likely that you'll do something like that. Because those people become less and less real to you. They're just things that are supposed to make you happy and feel good.
They can't hurt you, so there's no consequences to hurting them.
So you can hurt them because you're annoyed.
You can hurt them because it's funny.
You can hurt them because of something they did so far in the past that you shouldn't care about it but you do because why not? It doesn't matter. They can't hurt you. And when the consequences come, you just shut that part off.
And they notice that they can't hurt you. It's unfair, that you can hurt them but they can't hurt you. So they stop caring too. But for them, it means that they don't want to have the good parts. They don't want to be around you. They leave.
But you don't like that. You want the good parts. And you want to be able to hurt them without them being able to hurt you. So you struggle.
And then they're dead.