IC contact for lastvoyages

[citizendetective]

[If I don't have an active post up, feel free to use this post to have your character call, videochat, text, or knock on Misty's door.]

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[citizendetective]

Let me ask you a question, John: do you think I'm not speaking from experience, too?

[greatoldjohn]

You told me you can't do it. It's not something you can depend on. So no, you aren't.

I do think you're speaking from some experience. I always assume that. What else would you be speaking from?

[citizendetective]

Partial experience, then. What I mean is I'm not totally ignorant.

[greatoldjohn]

I never assume you're ignorant, Misty. But there is a big difference between that part and the whole.

I'm not telling you to discount your experience. I'm telling you as a warning because I don't want to see you do something you'll eventually regret.

[citizendetective]

You read Natalie's file, right? About our history?

[greatoldjohn]

I have.

[citizendetective]

Okay.

[That's all she says - no more questions there.]

And how is Arthur?

[greatoldjohn]

Strong. And steady. His legs needs to heal but his hand is back up to snuff. I've been texting as much as possible to get it limber again.

[citizendetective]

So I'm helping you, right now?

[greatoldjohn]

Yes.

As is talking to you.

I *have* missed you.

jfc self why

[citizendetective]

Don't you think it's weird that this is what made us talk again?

Re: jfc self why

[greatoldjohn]

It's been a week, Misty.

We were going to talk today anyway.

[citizendetective]

I know, but then this happened and I figured we'd never talk again.

I don't think it's weird, for the record. I'm just surprised that you don't.

[greatoldjohn]

...Arthur and I have been through some shit, Misty.

Not to minimize the shitty thing you two did but...

We're handling it.

[citizendetective]

You've gotten a lot more angry with me for a lot less, is my point.

[greatoldjohn]

Okay, first off? I want to be sure:

What do you think I've gotten angry at you about?

[citizendetective]

Didn't we already cover this? Misunderstandings, assumptions on both our parts, etcetera.

[greatoldjohn]

No, I don't think we did.

I talked about things I take issue with. But I want to know what you think I got angry at you for. I don't think assuming anything's been covered is a good idea. Because I only got angry once.

[citizendetective]

Okay.

Because Arthur didn't like me.

[greatoldjohn]

No, I was never angry at you for that. I also wasn't angry about it.

Disappointed, but not angry. And not in you. I know Arthur is difficult.

I also know he's willing to forgive others. So I knew it wasn't necessarily permanent.

And before you assume: it's still not necessarily permanent.

[citizendetective]

So am I, depending on the circumstances. Was it because you assumed I wasn't?

[greatoldjohn]

No, actually.

The only time I got angry was just before the talk.

When you broke the teacup I was scared and frustrated. When you pushed me away over the file, I was frustrated and hurt.

I only got angry when you assumed I don't care about Natalie or what happened to her. That I would ever minimize something like that. When you tried to tell me what I meant and what I felt.

Maybe you weren't thinking of it that way, but it was an easy way to get out of apologizing for something shitty you did. I've apologized a lot because I know I make mistakes. You never have. And warden or inmate, that's not fair.

I do feel bad about what I said, because it was cruel. I told you before that I say awful things when I'm angry. But I don't want to apologize yet, not right now, and not after the things you've done that haven't been addressed. I wouldn't feel it.

[citizendetective]

Well, I still don't like that you said it. And it worries me that you could say it, even out of anger.

[greatoldjohn]

It worries me that you could know that Arthur is blind and that he's been through things like you and Natalie and still bang, multiple times, even after you've been asked not to.

But either we accept that we've both had reactions the other one doesn't like or we're going to remain at a standstill.

[citizendetective]

Do you mean when I was banging on the table?